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Why do these things happen to good people? [Aug. 15th, 2007|09:19 pm]
[Current Location |work]
[Current Mood |scaredscared]
[Current Music |80's hits]

So i keep having these reaccuring dreams, basicly what happens is im at my house with everybody and for some reason liz asks if chase can come over, and even more dumb is i say yes. fucking retarted move on my part and we're all chillin and then liz and chase disappear for a while, so i go look around and i walk i my room and their fucking on my bed. and then i walk outside and try to drown myself in my hot tub. and then this text that i got from liz, the day she went to nashville flashes. it reads

"chase, im going to the dirty souf today. my boyfriend and i broke up, we should play soon."

and then i wake up breatheing really hard. i dont get it

is there something wrong with me?
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wow. thats pretty much all i have to say [Jun. 4th, 2007|11:39 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood |happyTruly happy for the first time]
[Current Music |every time we touch-cascada]

this is something i have never felt before. i like it far too much i think.

i know everything will be ok, i promise.

you mean the world to me
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so i have come to notice that i hate me job [Apr. 3rd, 2007|12:33 am]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]
[Current Music |tv]

So i got written up today. wanna know why? I'll tell you, its because im 17, and i work with people who are all at least ten years older.

its fucking rediculous, if those fuckers say that i did something wrong, even if they have no idea what im doing.

of course kelly will fucking believe them, cause im 17 so i guess i cant do anything right.

and the fact that my mom is home isnt helping. bitching and bitching thats all she does.

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WOW, YOU'RE A BITCH! [Mar. 17th, 2007|01:34 pm]
[Current Location |work]
[Current Mood |aggravatedAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH]
[Current Music |some shitty song]

I'm so fucking sick of my manager, she is so fucking dumb. she hired like 50 fucking people. and then little miss chelsea decides she wants hours too, ok what ever. BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA ASK FOR FUCKING HOURS. MAYBE YOU SHOULD SHOW UP WHEN YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO. instead of calling kelly and asking her if you can come in late you dumb ass bitch.

ya today, im not even supposed to be here today. but no kelly knows i wont fucking say no to her and so she has me working way to fucking much this week. its not even the fact that i have too many hours. its the fact that i come down here to work 5 hours and i work six days a week.

ans on top of all this, shes back in my life somewhat. i missed her and wanted her back but i didnt thnk that was gona happen odd
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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2007|01:48 am]
[Current Mood |thirstythirsty]
[Current Music |Tiny dancer!!!!!!!!!]

well i guess things are good now. i'm kind of a happy guy.

the crazy dreams are over.

its not weird anymore thats so good.

still a little pain but oh well i guess.

on a better note. this weekend was amazing. friday: went and saw 23 gay as hell hahaha

saturday: worked, then home then beckys, 2cases of beer and me and tc=an amazing night.

can you say vomiting while going 32 down 4th ave.


and then today was cool. went to the barn. then came home, shilled at sareeeeees for a while. came home waited for juicy to get off and played guitar hero. then there was more guitar hero and then pool and then more guitar hero.....

and tomorrow who knows.
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will you still hold me the same when you see what i have done? [Feb. 23rd, 2007|01:09 pm]
[Current Mood |crushedcrushed]
[Current Music |atreyu]

i thought i hadn't lost any friends. but i was wrong, i dont know if you realize it yet but our friendship will never be the same. and i know we'll slowely drift apart and same with nick. he's gonna be with you on all his freetime. there goes our friendship....
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2007|05:44 pm]
[Current Mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[Current Music |the crimson-atreyu]

i just wish i could know what you are thinking...
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fuck this not knowing bullshit..... [Feb. 20th, 2007|12:50 pm]
[Current Mood |nervousnervous]
[Current Music |some song that goes whoop whoop]

i just hate this whole fucking thing.

i really have feelings for you.

but if being with you ruins the friendship i have, i dont know if i could handle it.

sure we could keep it under wraps but i really dont like doing that.

it might be out of spite, who knows?

maybe one day i'll find out the truth......
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why? [Jan. 27th, 2007|02:35 pm]
[Current Location |work]
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]
[Current Music |BALLIN!]

why the hell do they all do this to me i just dont get it....

first it starts out good and its all cute and what not
then they slowly start to let go and ignor me

then finally for some odd reason there is nothing there anymore i just dont fucking get it
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i fucking hate you why the fuck won't you leave?? [Dec. 25th, 2006|10:20 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed the fuck off]
[Current Music |some shitty show]

i cant fucking stand having this fucker around anymore. but for some odd reaon my mom doesnt give a shit how i feel about things. fuck her too. iguess she doesnt give a fuck how i fel as long as shes "happy" ans im getting so fucking pissed because hes tryinso fucking hard, and i keep pretty much telling him to fuck off but he wont leave me alone.

like sure he got me achristmas present but it wat a card that said tha its good for 50 of fun with russ. like he is trying so hard to get back into my life but i dont want him around anymore. i fucking hate the guy

fuck him!
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